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Hail Damage

I remember a conversation with my Life Coach about ten years ago. I was hurting. My heart was breaking. I truly thought it was more than I could bear. What he said was life changing. "Stop carrying this in your mind. Move it to your heart and let God carry it with you. Your mind was not made to carry this. God works in ways your mind cannot understand. But your heart was made to link with His. He wants to carry this."

Fast forward 7 years. The amount of pain and disappointment we have walked through as a family makes the pain of ten years ago seem like a pinprick. Cancer, unemployment, death of a parent, miscarriage, more unemployment, difficult people, dementia, heath issues, car trouble and that is the stuff I can list in a public forum. The difficult path my family is on includes extended family members as well. About the time I think things are making a turn for the better there is more news to process and release to God. When sharing details with a friend she commented, "Wow life sure has left a lot of hail damage on your heart." She was right. The constant pounding was damaging my heart, my dreams, and even my body. Stress is brutal.

We shared our pain with Pastors from our church. "This is great, God is up to something." I really wanted them to validate my pain and pray for me but they were absolutely giddy. "I remember when....and then their story tumbled out. That verse about FAITH coming by hearing. It is true. Hearing their stories helped. We were encouraged.

Year three of this saga began and it honestly felt like treading water...in a hurricane. EXHAUSTION. FEAR. ANGER. DOUBT. I made daily decisions not to camp anyplace that stole my joy. The JOY of the LORD is my strength. I would claim this repeatedly by faith.

CUE HAPPY ENDING WITH WARM FUZZY MUSIC.
About that happy ending. Seems it is a work in progress. So I'd like to share thoughts from those who have encouraged me.

"What promises do you think are past due from God? Your destiny does not have an expiration date. Judge God faithful and pray to be released at the appointed time!"-Chistine Caine.

"God will not put you in a place where your character cannot support your destiny." -Robert Morris.

Just do your part. Obedience plus God equals supernatural activity. TRUST God has gone behind the scenes to manipulate things for you. When difficulty arises fight your instinct to take control and stand still. Once you are still then keep God's promises close to your heart, stand on these. Realize this scenario may be so you see God in a new way. Walk only in the steps he suggests. Do not let all your gifts and talents distract you from missing His path for your life. Be quiet, and guard against complaining. -Priscilla Shirer

"Your destiny is not about you. It is about understanding the justice of God and His purpose, then aligning yourself." -Mary Dunham Faulkner

"Sometimes God trusts your relationship enough to take the long route. The path you are on is never just about you. It is about those on the path with you and His name being glorified.- Charlotte Gambill

"Walk in the season God has called you. Stop comparison. Imitation is limitation. Anointing remains in you, nobody can teach you. It is innate in you. (1John 2:27) Always consider the spiritual realm and ask to see by the spirit." -Michelle Brogan

"There is NO wasted anointing."-Cindy Jacobs

"Are you holding on to where you were instead of living where you are? STOP IT! that's no way to walk into your destiny"-TD Jakes

My prayer is that whatever parts of your life have been crumpled to death will be be fully restored this EASTER weekend. I believe the same Resurrection power that brought Jesus back to life is available for you!

Practical resources:
From Dream to Destiny, Robert Morris
Plan B, Pete Wilson
Life Interrupted, Priscilla Shirer

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