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List is a Four Letter Word

For as long as I can remember I have made a scheduled "to do" list. I am not sure all of the reasons why but this list makes me feel secure. Sometimes I actually add things at the end of the day so that I can mark a line through them. Weird I know. I am a strategic planner who very much enjoys the sense of accomplishment that rolls over me at the end of the day when I review my "to do" list. Because God does not have cable and enjoys a good sitcom I am married to Brad. When we first married Brad was quick to point out that the word list is a four letter word. Brad is spontaneous, impulsive, and wired full throttle for adventure.

As a family we are in a very unique season. Transition is our current theme and we are seeking God's will for everything in our lives. So my "to do" list has only one item. 1.GOD: Listen and obey. As you can imagine this has been a struggle for me. I keep wanting to sit down the night before and make "the list" but I am not allowed. Very clearly this time is about listening, learning, and then doing.

In so many ways this season reminds me of when Brad and I first began dating. I would get ready, he would show up,and the adventure would begin. I learned a lot about his heart during our courtship. And that is how I feel right now about God. I am learning so much about His heart. Because my agenda is off the table the relationship is taking a more serious turn. I have discovered I can trust His character. His mission resonates deeply in my heart. And I am completely overwhelmed with His view of me. Each day is a unique adventure by divine design. My sense of accomplishment at the end of the day is the knowledge that I have the courage to trust Him fully and obey Him completely. Some of the things He has requested for me to do are downright uncomfortable. But I am starting to thrive in this wild adventure. In fact I can't remember when I have felt so alive.

And just because God has a grand sense of humor Brad asked me today to help him make a strategic plan. I replied, "You mean a "to do" list?"

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